Wow, I need to keep this more up to date. All apologies.
I am actually enjoying my new job, about to move into a new place (out of the burbs' and into the city!) and happy with life.
Unfortunately, I am not happy with tonight.
The last three weeks or so I have been in a bit of a slump. My game has most definiatly taken a turn downward. I am not exactly sure why, overall, it boils down to a lack of confidence on my part. I have no idea where this came from, but my AA has kicked in hardcore.
Tonight, I felt great before I headed out, then, after I got out I felt like a total turd. I had terrible AA and just couldn't put words together. My mind felt like it was blank. After sittin around and drinking for awhile, joey opened a 2 set for me. I started chatting one girl who at the time was doing a good job of devoting her attention to me. I just could not make it happen. It was aquward, weird and through the entire interaction I could feel it. My mind was lost, it was all lost and i felt unraveled. At one point I pulled a routine, unfortunately, it was totally uncalibrated and went over like a shit-sandwich. I tried to go playful and told her I had her pegged as a bad girl, even though she seemed shy. She responded in a "WTF does that mean" manner. However after a bit her reaction was confusing me. I coulent tell if she was upset/offended or turned on. I truly didnt know what was going on. But I really didn't know how to handle it.
Oh my do I need to re-calibrate my game.
