Goals for Myself

-Exude sexuality.
-Exude confidence.
-Don't say more when less will do.
-Have stronger eye contact.
-Have more relaxed body language.
-Be more controlled aka non-reactive.
-Approach with an empty and open mind. Don't hesitate to think about what to say or anything, just do it.
-Make at least one persons day, everyday.
-Be the party, and make sure everyone around you is included and enjoying life.

Im sure there's more to add I guess Ill have to add more later.

Refine and Structure.

This weekend was definiatly a step in the right direction for me. I ran a few very good sets. I really wanted to just work on opening and transitioning, which i think I did well.

One thing I see that I need to start working on is my efficiency. I need to put structure back into my game and cut out all the white noise. Also, I still need to practice, work on my approaches and get better.

I still believe I am much better than I think I am currently.

Sleepy Saturday Night

I took some much needed personal time tonight. Didn't go out, just stayed in an slept.

After last night I felt like I just needed to get back into a neutrual gear. Plus, after getting off of work I was increadably exausted. I realized I could either force myself to go out or take a night off and chill. I chose the latter of course, which I think was a great decision.

Strange Days.

Wow, I need to keep this more up to date. All apologies.

I am actually enjoying my new job, about to move into a new place (out of the burbs' and into the city!) and happy with life.

Unfortunately, I am not happy with tonight.

The last three weeks or so I have been in a bit of a slump. My game has most definiatly taken a turn downward. I am not exactly sure why, overall, it boils down to a lack of confidence on my part. I have no idea where this came from, but my AA has kicked in hardcore.

Tonight, I felt great before I headed out, then, after I got out I felt like a total turd. I had terrible AA and just couldn't put words together. My mind felt like it was blank. After sittin around and drinking for awhile, joey opened a 2 set for me. I started chatting one girl who at the time was doing a good job of devoting her attention to me. I just could not make it happen. It was aquward, weird and through the entire interaction I could feel it. My mind was lost, it was all lost and i felt unraveled. At one point I pulled a routine, unfortunately, it was totally uncalibrated and went over like a shit-sandwich. I tried to go playful and told her I had her pegged as a bad girl, even though she seemed shy. She responded in a "WTF does that mean" manner. However after a bit her reaction was confusing me. I coulent tell if she was upset/offended or turned on. I truly didnt know what was going on. But I really didn't know how to handle it.

Oh my do I need to re-calibrate my game.